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the reading, watching, listening links. seemed a bit old since #1 on watching was still the war, but then again, it ain’t over, is it?

so wendy told me i was being grumpy lately, and she’s right… i get grumpy whenever i don’t have a damn good book to read and I’ve got a handful of stinkers open right now.

so… i literally just spent over an hour plugging myself into the amazon recommendations thing, marking off what i have and what i’ve liked and what i’ve hated. i’ll be damned if it isn’t a pretty good little engine. should have enough fucking data to connect like authors. at any rate, i’ve happily got a list of over 20 new authors and titles to give a whirl…

I don’t know how Jason did with his personal weight loss challenge, but I failed mine miserably. Admittedly, reaching my goal by my birthday in May was a bit of a stretch - I could have reached it if I had done two hours of cardio every day and ate only falafel since January - but it still sent me into a bit of a tailspin having not reached it… I even started doing one of those crash diet systems with an insanely restrictive diet and heaps of exercise, both cardio and weight-lifting… and I followed it religiously for 90 days leading up to my birthday. But I didn’t lose a single fucking pound, eating all that miserable dreck. I certainly beefed up the muscles, but my goal is weight loss, not buffing up.

At any rate, that failure lead to me kind of being pissed off about the whole process and slacking… I’m still exercising as much, but kind of let the whole watching what I eat thing slide a bit. End result? For the first time in two years, rather than having my clothes fit the same or be a little looser every week, they’re fucking tighter. Not bad enough that I have to slide back up the fat scale in clothes or anything, but noticably tighter.

So back to what worked. Keep up the exercise I’m doing - 45 min to an hour of cardio a day, yoga every day, weight lifting three times a week - and get back on the sensible eating plan. The fucking Subway thing works, but I can’t eat the same thing every day, twice a day, so I’ll make my Whole Foods market substitutions. If I’ve got the time to order a pizza, I’ve got the time to vespa down to subway or heat up some soup instead. Instead of treating myself to a nice meal out every other day (and then justifying it by getting the chicken fajitas instead of the steak and convincing myself I’m still eating healthy), back to cutting that down to one nice meal a week. Instead of getting the iced blended mocha, just an iced coffee. It’s all pretty simple and I fucking did it and did it right for over a year, and dropped well over 70 pounds…. how quickly I forgot, how quickly I slid back into (not-quite-as-)bad habits.

So there.

just keepin’ on… got some work here and there, working on another mix (classical music / electro beats, kind of cool)… and that’s all she wrote.

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